nothing in this world.

Dear Bloggie,

so, my grades aint good at all.
im sad like really.
its like no matter what i do, nothing seem great at all.
nothing is going in my way.
this is exactly not what i wanted.
i've fail my mummy, i've fail my daddy.i've fail sim.
i've let all those there for down..
his result aint what i expected it to be.
meeting VP for the second time already.
look, how great can my life get??!
i want to cry. i want to die.
i don't want to let those that care for me to be hurt to be sad.
i dont want to regret for what i do.
many ppl have told me its okay, you just have to pia for EOY.
but comeon, i have to clear this hurdle right in front of me first before i can move on.
right now i dun even know what will happen to me.
my grades suck, everyone is worried for me. which i dont want them to.
so what am i gonna do now?
thursday is meet the parents.
yes meeting the VP.
how i wish i was in primary school.
now i really wonder god, where are you when i needed you most?
i pray ever now and then than if only i could just improve my grades.
i seriously dont want to retain another year.
i've already wasted enough time.
not gonna waste anymore.
is time really the factor thats stopping me?
why is my result so lousy?
i wanna make my parents feel proud,be happy.
but nothing seem right.
i suck.
im such a failure.
im not born smart.
so why do you have to make my life so miserable?

sometimes, enough is really enough.